I’m over my mood….jiu jitsu and me are friends again. 😂 I’m feeling better about it after my rolls Thursday and last night.


jitz blah still lingering

I thought I was going to be all in love with jiu jitsu again this week but I haven’t been. I have not enjoyed it one bit really and it has taken every ounce of willpower to even show up. I know it will pass. I feel so terrible at it right now….. I think it takes me so much longer to catch onto than others. Muay Thai wasn’t this hard to at least feel decent at. I know I will get there though.

Dear Jiu Jitsu


My goodness I have been a terrible blogger lately.  Many things have been going on but I haven’t forgotten about this.  First, the picture above is from training the other night with some of my favorite ladies at my gym, owner and gym Momma “Nana T” Tamara Benton and Pro MMA Fighter, wrestler, and the coolest hawaiian ever, Stephanie Geltmacher.  These ladies make me better all around….not just as a martial artist but as a person. (Oh and my husband in the background….he is amazing)

I got my 2nd stripe on my white belt recently.


After that, I went into a phase where I was experiencing some frustration with jiu jitsu.  I am in love with it most of the time but sometimes I go through these phases where it just makes me so ARRRRGGGHHHHH!!!!!!  Haha….I hear and read that these phases are normal and probably why jiu jitsu is so transformative.  It does not come easy to me, infact, I find it extremely challenging which is why I love and respect it so much.  I feel like it is such a challenge to so much inside of you that you never knew was there.  That is why it is such a beautiful martial art.  Up until this past Friday, I was experiencing this frustration but Friday something changed….the frustration subsided and I found that good feeling again.  Jiu jitsu really makes you dig deep.   I am appreciative to my coaches, teammates, my husband, and especially the people a rolled with.  I am so much better at expressing myself through writing…I should say this to people in person more often.  You all help me more than you know.

Anyway, so I finally decided to do my first tournament.  It will be my son’s first time as well and my husband will also be competing for the first time in years.  (since before kids I believe)  I am now very excited about it and I am thankful for Hayes Electric for sponsoring us as well!

So to jiu jitsu….you piss me off sometimes but gosh darn it I love you!